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M jus nt in2 writing stuff, still donno y m bck 2 blogging again.... newayz 2 start f wid... i jus don want ne1 reading dis... jus dat m slow on writing on paper n super kwel in typing, dat i preferred writing here...

M lik, in2 thousand of thotz 2nyt... vl try 2 put down few f dem...

well 2 start f wid... vry 1st question arose in mah mind iz... "m i so vella 2 write dis crapshit down"... n d vry nxt moment mah mindz micro-processor answerd me..."yeahhhh"....

so accepting d fact i wd 1st luv 2 discuss mah vellapanti...

dis-interest in studies(whch m suppose 2 do ryt nw, bt feel 2 contended n brainy enuf 4 dat)...

no1 wrthwhile on fb (it happens!!)...

nowhr 2 go n hangout (already had enuf f it n seen a lot)...

slpless (coz m nt drunk 4 a change.. trying 2 control it bhai :-))...

meaningless cell phone(already had a chat wid dad n no1 else wrthwhile enuf iz der , morovr m jus 2 sick of holding it nxt 2 mah earz since class 12th)...

want mor???

naaah??? so lets leave it..!!!

Being in2 a settled lyf (getting plenty f money 4 sheer nuthing), i shd b happy...ryt??? bt m nt... y?? i donno!!!

mayb i want mor...bt wot??? i donno!!!

Bt all i knw iz...stagnation sucks... evn if m sitting in las vegas... i vl seek change...n dat justifies y m so gotdamn thotful...

If i m at peace station n wrking, aftr sum dayz i wd luv 2 relax... if m in field n relaxing,aftr sumtym i wd luv 2 wrk!!!

Bt things don go as u plan...

true!!! i accept dat!!!

so der got 2 b sum solution....

well...

well...

DONNO ...

Considering odrz at mah place... dey r mor satisfied... den y m nt???

lemme chk...aaaaa.... yeah...

dey rnt btr dan me professionally newayz...

dey don gift Honda city to der dad, lik i hv giftd...

dey don hv courage 2 hug ppl less dan der standards, lik i hv done...

dey hvnt seen human character, lik i hv seen...

dey dont smile back 2 ppl who stabbed dem few dayz bck, lik i do...

dey don stand tall without a sense f fear in front of senior offcrz evn if dey r wrng, lik i do...

dey don keep honour code in der wallets, lik i do...

dey don do all dat iz shwn in movies whch a guy do 4 a gal, lik i hv done...

dey dont gift stangers nething, lik i do...

dey lie 2 parents n frnds, unlik me...

dey cheat, unlik me...

dey hv hollow hearts, unlik me...

dey run 4m responsibilities, unlik me...

dey don die 4 frndz n relatives, unlik me...

n so many thing dey do..... unlik me...

>>>den y m i less satisfied??....

aaaa....yeah... dey love sleeping, eating n doing wot i generally don prioritize...

aaaa....yeah... few f dem hv Gf'z...

(well i m sick f dem... dey incur mor loss dan d comfort of "having sum1"...)

so again... answer iz ...

"I DONNO"...

Well u hv jus witnessed d preface f mah thotz...

derz lot mor 2 come...

Mayb i cn hv certain dreamz ( self made targets 2 giv meaning 2 mah lyf)...

Cliff jumping... (NORWAY...i vl visit u soon!!)...

Para jumping...(aah... already done dat!!)...

Flying a chopper... (vl do it in aviation soon)...

Shooting a terrorist down... (again... RR iz on d cards)...

Fyting a war... (godknwz...oopz... d kurta-paijama party knwzz)...

B a gud offcr... (u doubt??)...

B a well knwn offcr... (already half way thu)...

B a gud son (ask mah parents)...

B a gud frnd (ask mah frnds)...

B a gud helpful-stanger (ask dose who donno my full name yet seek my help neday netym)...

Hv a gud Gf...(not possible, coz m 2 torn 4 dat 4m inside... cnt take chances nemor)...

Hv a nice wife... (unlik odrz, my Gf wd hv bn mah wife, if she wd hv bn der)...

Hv kids... (mayb vl adopt few)...

Hv a Dog... ( vry soon,coz no1 luvz u mor dan u urslf n ur DOG)...

N thousandz mor targets cn b set n shot!!!

Hey bt u knw... m feeling gud aftr writting all dis... emptied mah heart out...

I desrve mor... I desrve btr...

n 1 day i vl definately smile 4m mah heart... inshah-allah!!!!(God don say nething!!!... m an athiest n hv freedom f speech... so its Allah dis tym... Hope u don mind :-))

Thanx 4 reading...

(i know i said initially dat i wish no1 readz dis)...

Bt eventually, mah wishes nvr comes true :(... so hw cld dis 1 hv bn fulfilled dis tym... :(